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Emotional Regulation Excercise
I’m going through a lot right now. Generally I feel unhappy at home and work, I feel like I have limited support and trying to decide what is in my, and my son’s best interests. I know my emotions and concerns are valid. While I feel like I had achieved some emotional security, prior to…
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Here We Go Again Letter
I know we haven’t been talking much lately although we spend a lot of time together. Despite the silence, I want you to know I’m happy we met and that we’ve spent the last years together as a couple. You’ve played such a big role in my life, I love you, you are the father…
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Good Advice I’ve given to Other People (that I should listen to myself)
What goes down, can eventually come back up… it’s the way of things, but it’s also really hard to remember when you’re in it. I’ve been thinking a lot about advice I’ve given friends over the years that I resist taking myself:
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Anxiety & Avoidance
A couple months ago I caught my partner in a lie. It changed everything. Well, not everything.. but all those little cracks in our relationship suddenly felt like chasms. I don’t see him the way I did before that day. I’m disgusted by how he justified it. It scared me how trivial he thought my…
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Nearly Impossible to Offend
“No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.” – Eleanor Roosevelt I feel like the pandemic made a lot of us try to look past the parts of people that repulse us. Without getting political, the words “privilege’” and “rights” were thrown around by many with no appreciation of their true intent and…
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Open Letter to a Dismissive Avoidant
I’m sorry that someone taught you that it was better to hide than love yourself. I know you’re so scared to let anyone see you that it’s better to build the walls and shut out all the feeling. I know that rejection feels to you like abandonment and it hurts so badly that any small…
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No Advancement
I impulsively applied to an internal posting about a month ago. It represented a lateral move but one that would provide me greater visibility and experience in an area of complexity that I haven’t previously had much exposure. Overall, it seemed like a good thing to jump into the ring for but not the ideal,…
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Connection
I’ve started to work out again. If I’m honest the reason is because I feel immensely insecure in my relationship. There is almost no romance and hasn’t been for some time – physical or emotional. Unless I initiate it. Although it’s hard for me (and most people) to be vulnerable, I’ve brought it up to…
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The Underwriter
Next in the gallery of rogues that is my psyche is the underwriter. The underwriter, as the name suggests, is working constantly to assess and mitigate risk in my environment. She is constantly trying to predict the worst things that could happen. For example, say my partner goes away for the weekend. She is telling…
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The Diffident
If you hadn’t already guessed, my therapist is into family systems therapy. She’s encouraged me to write about all my different “parts” or personality components. She tells me that acknowledging and expressing gratitude are the first steps in reconciling and connecting the disconnected and warring portions of the psyche. At 18-months my son is roaring…